Poems Page 2

This poem is for my husband.

Who took his life on may 28th 2003.

He was only 25

IM SCARED

You left me empty

You left me with so much to say

you left me hurt

you left me broken

IM SCARED

You took my confidence

You took my spirit

You took my Trust

You took my Heart

IM SCARED

You gave me your heart

You gave me your soul

You gave me your promise

IM SCARED

You Lied

You Abused

You Loved

You Tried

IM ALONE

You took your Life

IM SCARED

You ruined my life

My name is AJA and I'm 23 and I'm a widow

THE END IS THE BEGINNING

Now the time has come
For me to say good-bye
Please don't judge me harshly
Or always sit and cry

This highway ride will lead me
Straight into the sky
Into the blue of heaven
Peace mirrored in my eye

My cycle has all the power
For a journey to this land
No trouble do await me
God has touched me with his hand

I've found for what I'm seeking
The past now just folklore
Patiently its been waiting
I will search not ever more

I Love You Jim, Forever
Kim

James Duff Sandretto
September 2, 1956 - February 2, 2003

For Kevin Hall

I remember when you used to love me
that was when you where here though
you where only fifteen
its so sad
you where so smart
why didnt I know
I miss everything about you
your eyes; looking up at me
happiness to see me
sarcasm
you taught me so much
why would you leave
do you know what you did to me
when I think of that day
everything inside me cringes
should I go too
should I dwell over you
I miss you
you held me in your hands
did you know
did you care
I wanna bleed
if you went did you want me to come
you took a trip right
youll be back soon
you have to someday
would we be close still
when you said I cant imagine how much pain there is
now I know
are you happy
is this what you wanted
did you want me to feel
did you want me to see
you showed me
so now that I understand
can you come back
did it have to cost you your life
you werent that person
I knew you
why didnt you care
why would you think that I wouldnt miss you
were you that deep in
I could have helped I didnt know what to do
everyone blames me
do you think, where you would be right now
I love you
I dont understand though
its not okay for you to be gone
did you know I ended up a mental case
did you know that I couldnt feel
you took that away from me
I was so blind
I took in your pain I think
maybe I deserved it
your poor family
why did you do that to them
you tore them apart
was it worth it
did you need to do that
I hope that you make peace with them at least
they deserve it
I laid on my floor motionless
I didnt know if I was dead
I felt my heart beat
I was mad
I was pissed to be alive
you left me behind
you let me live with your pain
almost two years later and your fine and here I am
why didnt you bring me with
I hate you sometimes
the pain that I feel because you couldnt deal
is that okay
is that what I deserved
maybe...

By Nicole Youngblood

Josh.....
Everyone has a question,
Only you have the answer.
We want to know why...
You cannot answer,
We will always wonder.
Forever shall we question why?
You've taken yourself from us,
We love you more than words can say,
We miss you more than eyes can cry.
And as we wish for you back,
We remember your life,
And all you contributed to ours.
Nothing about you will be forgotten;
Your sense of humor,
Your breathtaking smile,
Your content personality,
Your love for everyone.
You were funny and sweet,
Entertaining and fun,
This is how we will remember you.
There was so much more to you than
That horrible decision that ended your life.
Your life was treasured by many
And memories of it live forever in our hearts.
We love and miss you dearly

I WONDER

CODY, DEAR CODY, WHAT WERE YOU THINKING THAT DAY?
I WONDER.....

IN A SNAP DECISION YOU THREW IT ALL AWAY!
WAS LIFE REALLY SO BAD THAT YOU HAD TO END IT THAT WAY?
I WONDER....

WAS YOUR PAIN SO GREAT, WERE YOU REALLY THAT MAD?
WAS THAT THE ONLY WAY YOU FELT YOU COULD HAVE YOUR SAY?
I WONDER....

WHAT A WONDERFUL LIFE WASTED, WHAT A SWEET YOUNG MAN GONE;
GONE TO A PEACEFUL SLEEP FROM THIS LIFE YOU FELT WAS SO WRONG.

YOU WERE LOVED SO MUCH SWEETIE, YOU WERE ONE OF A KIND.
BUT YOU LEFT US ALL MOURNING, LEFT US ALL BEHIND TO A LIFE
OF TURMOIL, NO PEACE WILL WE FIND. NEVER TO SEE YOUR
SWEET SMILE, OR HEAR YOUR LAUGHTER...NO MORE HUGS, NO MORE "HI GRANDMA!"
AND I WILL FOREVER WONDER & LOVE YOU & MISS YOU.

CODY DANIEL STAFFORD 10/02/86 - 05/26/04